// On :Friday, May 21, 2010
*sigh* i dunno why but my life is so
especially about LOVE thingy
when i was in high school, nobody ever realize me that i was there. i have nobody and i feel like im only a shadow. sometimes they even forget me though i was there beyond them. sometimes i feel like "do they really doesn't know that i'm exist?" i need somebody and nedd some shine to be like them. Im not that talkative and usually got nervous to start a conversation, maybe thats why i merely look alike a shadow. well yeah but that was past.
come to think about it, sometimes a friend that i have is a backstabber. -__-' dude, is that me or really they never respect me and whatever my fond of. with a flash they rob everything which i hardly to reach.
In My familly, i feel like im living inside the cage.I
i envy to those who can hang out with their friends freely. i even wishes if i only a bird, so that i can feel high without feel any despair.
because Im the eldest one, my parents always want me to do everything with perfect. it comes to desperate me. whatever i did are never seems enough for them. crying is the only things i can do to clear my mind..
Oi,pake google translate..kk g ngerti T_T